It’s been a while since my last text post, and I feel that you all should be informed on the current situation.
Some of you may know that for the past several years I have been dealing with a reoccurring, undiagnosed health problem. The issue wasn’t anything too serious at first – just uncomfortable and bothersome – and I was usually able to push through it. Although, starting in September, things took a turn for the worst. My mood lowered and my energy levels decreased, and I was both physically and emotionally drained. I couldn’t do anything – everything that used to bring me joy stopped being fun, and unfortunately, that included writing not only this rainbowcy, but writing in general. I thought it was a bad case of writer’s block and self-doubt, so I took a step back, hoping to recharge my creativity. Before I knew it, months had passed, and instead of recharging, I was even more drained and I felt that I couldn’t write anything worth reading. I was honestly afraid that I had lost my passion to write. However, instead of recovering/pushing through like I normally do, my health kept dwindling down so we made an appointment with a doctor. After several tests and procedures, we finally have a diagnosis for my health issue and I’m on a treatment path to help manage my condition. I honestly had no clue just how bad I was before now. I’m feeling so much better; I have the energy to do things, and my desire to write has definitely returned.
Although, due to not writing for months, my writing skills are not what they used to be. I sat down the other day to write a new chapter and…yikes. I mean, I knew I wasn’t going to be on top of my game, but I wasn’t expecting it to be as bad as it was. Due to this, I want to take a few weeks to refine, refocus and improve upon my writing skills before we really dive any farther into Strawberry’s generation. I have a lot of ideas for this generation (and the direction of the rainbowcy as a whole), and I really want to do this story justice. If I dive in head first right now without practicing, I know for a fact that I would not be writing this generation to the best of my ability. I know I haven’t been updating and I honestly cannot express to you how awful I feel about that – we should be well into Strawberry’s generation by now – but I really believe that I should post something I’m proud of instead of posting something just for the sake of updating. You, as the readers, do not deserve that, and neither does the story.
During this time I will become re-acquainted with the rainbowcy world as well as explore and expand upon my ideas. I have some side stories I’ve been itching to write for a while, and I’m going to write them as a gateway to help reintroduce me to the rainbowcy world, so if I do post anything during this kind-of-hiatus time, it’ll most likely be one of those. It’s been so long since I’ve written anything for myself–much less an audience–so I’m kind of nervous. I’ll have to ease my way back into it, and I think starting with a side story will help me feel more comfortable. I do not plan on taking more than a few weeks – a month, tops – to become re-situated with the story. I won’t vanish for months on end again with no warning; I promise.
Also – thank you all so much for filling out the poll and offering your feedback on my last text post. I really appreciate it; it helped paint me a better picture of how this generation, as well as future ones, should be structured. Most of you seem perfectly content with reading longer generations, so I will definitely keep that in mind as I plan for the future. As for chapter length…I think I’m going to experiment with chapter length a little bit more. I’ll try to add more of a variety of chapter lengths in this generation than I did in the past to see how it goes. Although, in the end, as many of you have reminded me, this is still my story, and I will go with my gut. Some generations and some chapters are going to be longer than others, and that’s okay. I realize that not everyone is going to be happy about the generation and/or chapter length, and that’s okay. I am going to do what I think this story needs.
Because of my multiple breaks during Strawberry’s narrative, when I come back full-force, you might notice some subtle differences from the prologue to the newer updates (which should be in a month or so if everything goes according to plan) stylistic-wise. I will try to eliminate them as much as possible during the editing process, so it shouldn’t completely change the narrative (or be noticeable at all), but it is something I feel I should warn you about up front.
Alright! That’s all I wanted to tell you, readers. Sorry for the extremely long and kind of wordy text post…I just wanted to let you know what was going on. Thank you all so much for being so patient and understanding with me – I know it hasn’t been easy, especially with the lack of updates. I am extremely honored that all of you have stuck with me, even after all this time. You all help give me the inspiration and perseverance to continue. I hope you all have a fantastic day, and thank you for lending me a few moments of your time!